Well, 2022 is coming to an end. This has been another shitty year for me, and I don't know what to expect for 2023. There has been way to much stuff going on for me, and not in a good way.

Two more of my online friends passed away. One of them unfortunately committed suicide back in January. The second thing that happened was that my dog had to be put down back in May, and it really hurts me a lot. I still miss her. And I'm a bit disappointed, because I was supposed to get a new laptop this Christmas to replace my old one. It never came. The laptop that I have now is already outdated. I had it since 2015, and I just don't want to keep using it because It keeps acting up, along with lagging issues. I haven't been doing really good in college, either. I'm still trying to do my best to graduate and get an AA degree next year, and if not, then I'll just drop out. I can't afford to waste another year in college, just to fail my classes again.

On the bright side, there are a few good things that happen to me. I saw P1Harmony at a concert earlier this year, since it was their first time coming to Miami. I also went to the Florida Supercon again, along with getting selfies from Ray Chase and Nolan North, and getting an autograph from Ian Sinclair. I also have a new external hard drive that goes up to 6 TB. I was thinking that it's what I want to replace my other hard drives. They're pretty expensive on Amazon. And just last week, I went to New Orleans for a family vacation for the first time, and it was really great. I did get a tour around the city with my dad's friend who resides from there. I wish I could've gotten to see the Lalaurie Mansion. Maybe next time when I go there, I'll probably try to do a haunted tour. It would be pretty cool, despite the fact that I saw a bunch of graves down the road. Sure, it was pretty cold when I got there, but at least it was warm by the time we left to go to the airport back on Wednesday. And we also got a PS5 for Christmas too, so that's cool.

Hopefully, by 2023, I'll start doing commissions, or maybe look for a job. I need all the money I could get so that I can buy a laptop of my own. One that works pretty well with no lagging issues, and plays any game for the PCSX2 at full speed, or any other emulators like Xemu and Xenia. I'll have to make some changes with my Patreon just in case. Well, I think that should be it. Have a happy new year.

Well, this is it. It's the last day of the year. And to be honest, I'm not really looking forward to 2022, now that there's a new variant of COVID-19 since November, and I don't know when this pandemic is going to end. It feels like the Black Plague and the swine flu all over again. This year has been a total disaster for me and my family. I lost my grandma back in February, lost a friend from high school months later, I had to deal with a bunch of stuff relating to YouTube, that being privacy complaints, and a bunch of harassment and copyright claims from this one guy, and since it was my fourth year in college, I've failed three of my math classes with an F for all three semesters. I feel like math isn't really my strong suit this time, but still need to take them to get some credits in order for me to graduate. I'm taking one math class in January for a third time, and if I fail this one, well... I don't know what else to do. And I almost failed my Music Business and MIDI Electronic Arts classes with an F as well, as I had to keep resubmitting them until I got a better score for my assignments. Honestly, Pro Tools has been a pain in the neck for me to use, since I can never get the click track to work, along with adjusting the score, so that it's timed right. Last, but not least, several of my accounts have been hacked by those stupid crypto bros. First it was my Gmail and YouTube, then it was (almost) my Instagram, my EA, then my Twitter, and now my Steam. I don't know why these hackers are giving us such a hard time? This is why I had to enable 2FA and reset my passwords. I wish this hacking stuff died down, because this is not a way to end 2021. So, yeah, it hasn't been fun.

And to be honest, I haven't been posting a lot of things related to MMD lately, because truth is, I feel like I'm losing motivation. Throughout the past 9 years, I had fun using MMD to make animations, and I decided to do that as a hobby. But now, it just doesn't feel the same anymore. I wanted to come up with some ideas, but I just don't feel like doing anything anymore, which is why you barely see anything that I post with the software. And sometimes I don't feel like giving out my stuff for download, since there are a lot of people in the MMD community who are untrustworthy, that they always break the rules for models and stages, ruining everything for everyone. I think that's the reason why people make their models private, or give them to those they can fully trust. I think I'm more focused on my drawings and music, if that's the case.

But, on the bright side, at least I got both vaccinations, and I passed three of my classes for the fall semester with an A. I also learned how to make a one-sheet in Adobe Spark back in my spring semester. Hope things go well for me when I take biology and physical science this upcoming semester. I also got myself the Oculus Quest 2 for Christmas, which is awesome, and I'm loving it so far. With all that being said, thanks for reading, and have a happy new year.

I just woke up not too long ago, and tried to check my email, only to find out that I can't sign in anymore, and that's when I realize that my account got hacked. And that's not the only thing that was hacked. My YouTube account got hacked as well. I found out from someone on Twitter messaged me today, showing my YouTube account, and all of my videos that were posted on YouTube we're either deleted, or set to private. My account got renamed to HEX [ LIVE ] and the recent video on my channel is a live stream of cryptocurrency. I have to contact YouTube about this, because I know I'm not the only one who fell victim to this. And when I type in the URL to my channel, and now says "This page isn't available. Sorry about that. Try searching for something else." I don't understand how I can get hacked when I have a two-factor authorization. Why do people get away so easily by compromising someone's email accounts? Even if I try to reset my password on Gmail, I can't, because I found out that my account is using a different phone number if I try to get a verification code from Google. Please spread the word around. I don't know what else to do about this.

I'm now 24 years old. I still don't feel like I'm getting older.

Hey, everyone, this is GJYYNGII. So, these few weeks have been really rough for me and my family. And we are still staying strong even after what we went through. So, I had to take a break from social media until I felt better.

On Friday, February 12, my grandmother passed away in the hospital from heart failure after getting surgery the day before she died. It was unexpected, and a real tragedy. Now, it's only me, my sister, and my parents. I did say that she was in poor health last time, and that she had a polyp, but at the time that we were informed about her passing, we were devastated. I talked to her through the phone on Thursday morning, just hours before the surgery, to see how she was doing. She said that she was doing okay, and all that. That was the last time I talked to her. She was supposed to come back home with a nurse with her the next day, but everything came crashing down. It's going to be hard this year. Things aren't going to be the same anymore, not even on Thanksgiving, Christmas, or her birthday. Soon, we will have to make preparations for her funeral. These days, we'll have to visit her grave. It's going to be hard, but I'll manage to get through it. I promise.

Goodbye, granny. I'll miss you.

Dec. 9, 1934 - Feb. 12, 2021

Hello, everyone. This is GJYYNGII. Now, I don't post journals as much as I do on the web, but I'm doing this just to make an update on what's going on.

So, yesterday, I was informed by my parents that my grandma's in poor condition. First, she has water in her heart, and now she has a polyp, which is a growth formed in the intestines, and it could be cancerous. We are doing the best we can to take care of her, and try to stay positive. I'll try to post more often as I can while I'm doing so. Thanks for reading.

Well, guys, today is the last day of 2019. I really hope that everyone enjoyed themselves and see her as we move on to a new decade. Well, this year was a meh year for me. I mean, I had some good times, and bad times. I got the things I wanted for Christmas, like the drawing tablet I wanted, a few games, clothes, and some gift cards. I even you got some A's, 2 B's, and a C throughout the three semesters of college this year, just to bring my GPA back up to a 2. That way, I don't have to pay for my classes again. I also got to see the Kpop group, A.C.E, for the very first time a few weeks ago. I had a wonderful time there. I wish we got a chance to go to the Florida Supercon this year, but I didn't. Oh well, there's always next year. Hopefully, I'll be able to get a chance to go there again in 2020. Now, for the worst moments I had to go through. First thing, people dying. Somewhere in the middle of the year, I found out that my grandma's friend died. My mom and I attended her funeral, and then after her funeral, we were about to go talk to her widowed husband, but it didn't look like it was a good time to talk to him, because he was still devastated. We didn't get to see her burial because of traffic. Also, I also found out that two of my favorite female K-pop idols died. Sulli in October, and Hara in November. Their lives were taken away too soon. They were so young. I'm still sad after hearing the news about their deaths. Even the fact that there were so many Kpop idols leaving their groups left and right. It seemed like there was no end to it. It is what it is, but I really wish that none of these things happen. Especially when there are music Industries in South Korea that mistreat their idols and abuse them physically. But the worst moments I had to go through 2019, was this. My YouTube channel was almost banned. All because of this one guy who wouldn't leave me alone, and is always making lies about me and a few others from the past up to now. You all know who I'm talking about (for those who are subscribed to me on YouTube). The guy who sell those models ripped from games illegally, and also ported to a Vocaloid to UTAU, which is also illegal, if I may add. Three of my videos were taken down when I received 2 copyright strikes. One strike for a video of a teaser of my rant video about him, in the other copyright strike when two of my videos I made about him back in 2015 got taken down as well. He made his new YouTube channel back in 2017, so how is that even possible? And because of that, I had to private three of my videos I made about him from the past 3 months, because I feared that I would get another copyright strike from him. Why is it that I have to get the punishment, and not him? He is abusing the copyright system, and if he keeps on doing it, YouTube will ban him from the site for good. It doesn't make any things better, since YouTube's Creator on Creator harassment is part of their algorithm, meaning that we are not allowed to criticize anyone. Already hate that rule. So, we are not allowed to voice our opinions and thoughts about someone in the controversial things they did? They're just trying to silence criticism, and I find it truly disheartening and unacceptable. Just like how he's trying to silence me. Well, one thing's for sure, at least he got himself a community guidelines strike on YouTube. That's what he deserves after telling someone to end themselves after one of his videos got taken down. Despite the fact that YouTube is still a train wreck, you should at least try to do the right thing for once. So then, I had to archive all of my videos just in case if I get a third strike on YouTube. And let's not forget another controversial figure on YouTube, who is a disgusting human being. I still cannot forgive him for click-baiting Etika's death. Just like he did with X and Mac Miller last year. This is why I hate these 3AM challenges. It was come up with something that is just disrespectful, and offensive to people, like something racist, homophobic, stupid, or trying to summon the dead the day after they died. He deserves to be taken off of YouTube for good. Nobody wants him around anymore. In the end, these kinds of people are just absolute hypocrites.

So, now that this is the end of my rant, I am really hoping that 2020 would be better. I still love to show you my animations, voicebanks, music, artworks, and models with you all. Maybe, I should try to use my drawing tablet to do some sculpting once in awhile in sculptris. I'm still trying to get used to how it works. Luckily, it's also compatible for Android devices as well, since I am an Android user. And one day, I'll try to make a fan game that's Undertale related. One day. I know it's going to be hard and all, but it's going to take time for it to be done. I may do some voice acting and comic dubs some more throughout the next decade. Plus, 2020 will mark my 9th year on both deviantART, and YouTube. Boy, does time go by. Anyways, I hope that everyone enjoys the rest of the end of 2019. See you guys next year.

Greetings, earthlings? I know that I barely post anything here, but I just want to let you all know that I'm still alive, and doing well. I mostly post my stuff on dA, YouTube, and SoundCloud, but I will try to post stuff here more often if I can. Been busy with college and some projects lately.

So, yesterday, I checked my deviantART account, only to see multiple people attacking me, thinking I'm a hacker. All because I was advertising my dA on a server in Star Wars Battlefront. Here's the thing; I've never even played Star Wars Battlefront at all. I've never even hacked once. It's the actual truth. Never have I actually dealt with anything like this before. And now, someone on Battlefront is impersonating me just to make me look bad. I don't know why they would do this, but they need to stop. This is really unacceptable, and uncalled for. I don't even deserve this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiiwm2ThqKcI've never been so insulted in all my life. So, last night, I just received a note from an unknown guy, and this video was all about me. I really feel so hurt. You know what, I don' think that I should be here anymore. I might cause more trouble again. So for now, I'm closing all of my accounts, never to return again. Goodbye.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  Did you really think that I'm really gonna leave? Well, YOU'RE WRONG! April Fools Day! This video I just uploaded was meant to be a joke. I'm never leaving. There was no guy that sent me a note of the video last night. I made the video all by myself. This troll never existed at all. Am I messed up, or what?